Joy in the Journey?

David is having a very bad couple of days. He is unable to eat or sleep. He was able to make it to a cancer support group outing today, but for the most part, is not up to company...Pray for his relief and pray for Satira as she cares for him. Her leg continues to bother her.
My heart is so heavy tonight. I usually try to be positive and strong, but it is so incredibly difficult to see him suffer. It is almost unimaginable for my mother's heart to feel Satira's pain..I hear it in her voice. I want to reach out and DO SOMETHING, ANYTHING, FIX him, whatever. There is nothing I can say or do to make it better, to make the pain & the fear go away. My head hurts from that place of wanting so much for things to be different, and from trying to figure out what to do to get a bit of "control" over the situation. Today was hard. Tomorrow might be worse... the point is that I don't know!!!! None of us do. It's uncertain... But isn't faith about certainty? What happens when even in our faith we just reach a dark point and cry out? Is it ok to ask "why"? Maybe bargain a bit? Throw up your arms and say, "Help him...enough already...Do You hear us?" ...
My dear Satira; I think it's one thing to depend on God, and another to simply cry out to Him at times. I don't think He gets angry when we, in our human-ness sometimes reach that point. In fact, I think that's when God hears our cries the most. Heavenly Father, we are on our knees tonight.........